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God and worship

Why some sundays when I get to church and have worship time, do I fall in love with God and can't think of anything else I would rather be doing then loving my God, and other times, I would rather be......well i would rather be doing anything but worshiping god. Now I know thats harsh, but its true. I simply hate it. I wonder why my heart longs for god at times, and at other times I seem careless of him. He should be my best friend, and my best friend I care about all the time. Or my father for that matter. I care for him all the time, shouldn't my God be that way to? Don't get me wrong I love God all the time, but it just seems at differnt "levels" at times.

yellow belt!

I am now a yellow belt in TaeKwonDo! Doesn't sound like a big deal to you, but to me, very good. It was hard for me to go in front of everyone and do this! And I broke my first board! YEA! ;) Some good friends watched me and my hubby did to! Riley was there to! Its nice to have good friends! ;) Can't wait to get better!

concerts!

I had a really good time at the Jars of Clay and Steven Curtis Chapman concert! I would say I enjoyed Steven so much more though. Him and his family are going through a very difficult time in their life. Losing a little girl, o man. But he is truly amazing up there. Hurting and grieving in front of 1000's of fans. He talks about it, and says basically its in God's hand. He will get to dance with his daughter again in heaven. I don't know if I was to lose Riley if I would be that faithful. He says he doesn't have it all figured out but God is in control and that his daughter was never truly his. I forget often that Riley isn't mine that she is God's. That I am only here to raise her and love her, and that God is hers! What an amazing concept! He talked about grieving in all situations and that his God grieved also. Its part of life. Amazing!

Top Ten Signs You’re a Fundamentalist Christian

1. You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of yours.
2. You feel insulted and “dehumanized” when scientists say that people evolved from other life forms, but you have no problem with the Biblical claim that we were created from dirt.
3. You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believing in a Triune God.
4. Your face turns purple when you hear of the “atrocities” attributed to Allah, but you don’t even flinch when hearing about how God/Jehovah slaughtered all the babies of Egypt in “Exodus” and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in “Joshua” including women, children, and trees!
5. You laugh at Hindu beliefs that deify humans, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the Holy Spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.
6. You are willing to spend your life looking for little loopholes in the scientifically established age of Earth (few billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by Bronze Age tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that Earth is a few generations old.
7. You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefs — though excluding those in all rival sects - will spend eternity in an infinite Hell of suffering. And yet consider your religion the most “tolerant” and “loving.”
8. While modern science, history, geology, biology, and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in “tongues” may be all the evidence you need to “prove” Christianity.
9. You define 0.01% as a “high success rate” when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think that the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of God.
10. You actually know a lot less than many atheists and agnostics do about the Bible, Christianity, and church history - but still call yourself a Christian.

Somebody posted this on there blog today.....It really made me think..God really is here and we need to be sharing his love with people. Unfortunately some of these things "Christians" make to be true. But really God is just in control and we have to believe! Does that make sense? This stuff makes me sad!

god talks

Do you ever wonder why God works in some people very rapidly and in other people not so quickly. Are the people gods not working in so rapidly not listening? Are the other people God is just working in at that moment? God just has done so much in life, a lot lately, and shown me a lot of things, but was I not listening before?

I just wonder why some people have some spiritual gifts that are loud and known and God uses all the time. Then why do other people have these gifts and there not loud and not very evident. And god doesn't use them a lot...it confuses me!

hating my job

I hate serving. Let me say that again! I HATE SERVING! Buffalo wild wings is fine and all, but people suck. Why shouldn't of I thought that Elmhurst would be any different. People who think they are better then you because you are serving them! boo. I can't wait to be out of serving.

what would you want God to do?

At church today my pastor asked two questions What would you want God to do in our church if god has his way? and What do you fear about question number one. What would you answer? I answer this way. I want more people to know their spiritual gifts, and how to use them. We keep talking about going in the community, but if we could use the spiritual gifts god gave us how much more powerful could we be. What I fear about this is that not everyone will want to do this, and we will lose people in our church. How scary but exciting. God is for sure already working in my church. But, I am not going to limit god. What more could happen, if I didn't do that. Somebody at church today said something along the lines of we only let god out of a safe bottle when its "safe". This made me think, how often do I do this..All the time! I will more then likely be writing more about this because my thoughts aren't straight, and this probably doesn't make sense.

first post

Back to bloggin....I stoped my blog before, well for a stupid reason. Some people hurt my feelings, cause they didn't like what I had to say, and I caved. It took a long time for me to set this back up, well because I wasn't confident enough to do it. After lots of time, and prayer, here I am. I am not perfect, but I can't care what other people think about my blog. I don't do this for other people i do it for me, cause I enjoy it. So, if you have a problem with my blog in the future, or something I say in my blog do one of two things.... 1. tell me about it to my face, and we will talk, no problem! 2. if you don't want to talk about to my face, well....don't read my blog. Just stop, its that simple. Its mine and if you don't like it well not my problem. ( I know im really mature, let me tell you ha)

UPDATES in my life: I joined TaeKwonDo, and thus far its amazing. I have a hard time cause there are a lot of either blackbelts or almost blackbelts, and I am the ONLY white belt. BUT NOT FOR LONG! I am testing for my next belt, wish me luck! Which then makes me the only yellow belt. (But thats besides the point) I love what it is doing for my confidence.

I don't work at chilis anymore! I finally got out of that place. I didn't think it was possible. Ha! But I did it! Life after Chilis is amazing for those of you who keep asking. I wish I didn't have to still serve, but you get the point. Another thing is I quit the nanny thing. I love my time with Riley. She is going to preschool at the end of August, so...I want to spend at much time with her! Can't believe my baby girl is going to preschool! CRAZY! But I love how happy she will be there. My little social butterfly! ( i know you wonder where she gets that from)

Missional....I have a very missional mindset at this point. Hopefully it will be permanent. You ask what do I mean by this, I mean I am here for whatever God needs me to be here for. He just wants me to be out in the community and listening. I have done a ton of healing lately within myself. I say I, what I mean is God has helped me with this process. The funny thing is I hear him then say well gee if you would of given me all your trust to begin with you wouldn't be where I was! Oh man im so nieve. I'm going threw the book of acts right now. What a great book. It helps me realise what God means to be missional. Ask me what I think about Saul/paul. I will give you a mouthful be aware. Thankfully God has given a shove of this new outlook of being missional to my husband to. (along with my church and a lot of my friends) But sometimes mike and I don't always have the same "processes" that church is going on, and this time for once we do! I love Pastor Mike and where God is using him to take his church. His family has been threw some major garbage but I love how their faith keeps on goin!

Okay I think thats enough...I'll be around...